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i got lucky....
Jul. 14th, 2015 11:03 pm.... is the apocalypse on us?
( unbelievable but true i got lucky today: )
EDIT: vids will follow - have to check out where to host them, I'm sorry r!
EDIT2: vids should be up and working now again
also a friend asked me to show him my new spinner - because my spinner is amazing, so i tried to make a small movie... I'm horrible at such a thing, but here you go,
( and you can check my spinner out! )
and also because this seemed to have turned into a thing for me here we go with my round on my lists - 4 days early!
( lists, lists, and more lists )
( unbelievable but true i got lucky today: )
EDIT: vids will follow - have to check out where to host them, I'm sorry r!
EDIT2: vids should be up and working now again
also a friend asked me to show him my new spinner - because my spinner is amazing, so i tried to make a small movie... I'm horrible at such a thing, but here you go,
( and you can check my spinner out! )
and also because this seemed to have turned into a thing for me here we go with my round on my lists - 4 days early!
( lists, lists, and more lists )
was i the last one to see THIS?!
Jul. 12th, 2015 04:08 pmso i was away for the weekend for a medieval fair with friends - it was alright not as good as the one i will go to in september but alright...
( going off topic with how the fair went )
anyhow my friends are huge into yaoi and/or slash
and one of them recently got also into hp and also started with the paring harry/draco
and she showed me this amazing and fantastic and really, really awesome vid:
am i the last one to see?
has everybody seen it already but me?
well obviously i'm not really into the whole movie characters - to me, in my mind harry and draco dont look anything like the actors (i know most of you know this already, since i discussed this with loads of ppl) but they look like i imagined them the very first time i read the books
i watched the movies only after i read all the books so you see the first image coming from the words was just stronger
but this is really bloody hell fantastic!
i adore it!
didnt care so much for the others she showed me after- but this THIS!!!!
this one is just really fantastic- especially the way it is made - i found it very convincing!
i hope you enjoy it too!
( also on a sitenote )
( going off topic with how the fair went )
anyhow my friends are huge into yaoi and/or slash
and one of them recently got also into hp and also started with the paring harry/draco
and she showed me this amazing and fantastic and really, really awesome vid:
am i the last one to see?
has everybody seen it already but me?
well obviously i'm not really into the whole movie characters - to me, in my mind harry and draco dont look anything like the actors (i know most of you know this already, since i discussed this with loads of ppl) but they look like i imagined them the very first time i read the books
i watched the movies only after i read all the books so you see the first image coming from the words was just stronger
but this is really bloody hell fantastic!
i adore it!
didnt care so much for the others she showed me after- but this THIS!!!!
this one is just really fantastic- especially the way it is made - i found it very convincing!
i hope you enjoy it too!
( also on a sitenote )
why 2015 is such a downer...
Jun. 30th, 2015 08:56 am.... so by now its obvious 2015 and i wont become the best of friends, but last thursday i've been really put into place
( scary thing was scary )
( on a very happy side note )
so with this i leave you on a hopefully nice week- btw if you feel like you are having to much sunshine, please sent some over, here its all cloudy and cold and i really could use sunshine and lovely weather XD
( scary thing was scary )
( on a very happy side note )
so with this i leave you on a hopefully nice week- btw if you feel like you are having to much sunshine, please sent some over, here its all cloudy and cold and i really could use sunshine and lovely weather XD
so yes as many of you know by now, in this year i have been fucked over for really really good! and i am so sick of it!
( so to start at the beginning and get the rest down and in order )
( things i will judge you badly for )
so yes i am aware it isnt a short list... but really most of it is common sense and manners - stuff one simply doesn't do
there is also a list about things i wont judge you about:
( things you can do and i will just listen and take it in and try to remember )
i guess you are by now knowing where this is going too but i still have to get the rest of my chest anyway
today as i was going my roommate told me she likes ppl and her cat the best when they are pissed off and angry, because then its even more fun to pick on them - and then i said that that is a little sadistic- i didn't mean to judge the sadistic part just was pointing it out- because i know when i am angry and pissed off i am already very vexed and stressed out, and i hate it when someone goes and mocks on my feelings even more and picks even more on me; and then she said: there you go, being all judgemental again I knew you would say something like that again!
and somehow this was steaming in me during my work time
and today work was not a good day- i was somehow dizzy and a little beside myself and it was really hectic and a little lost and i have to get up the ladder and down again, with dizziness this is no fun
and in the evening i went home in the same underground line as two (male) co-workers - i think the male matters here, and because the conversation was very stiff and off, and i think it was my mistake...because i was the female...
but what really was worse was that they asked me what i was studying and i told them - and one of them was saying that that was plain stupid to do and what i was thinking - the other one tried to soften the blow and say it was cool that i stuck to my childhood dream... the situation itself did not really matter to me that much because both of the co-workers are always weird to me, so i just take it
but it got me thinking and thinking
and really the more i thought about it the anger i got, because i have been called judgmental a lot these year, and i am - since i am only human and we humans judge to decide what to do and how to proceed
( is a list about what all in my life has been judged by family, friends co-workers and ppl i just met- not talking about my looks )
so, please come again and tell me how much of a judgmental person i am again?!
all it really did was hurting me and making me angry, for i have to be judged all the time, but when i judge some things me is the bad one? sounds fishy to me
but on a happier note - because i try not to let you my dear fl off with all my bad emotions
( i call dips )
so know that i have ended it on a happy note i 've got to go back to writing, because writing!
and i want to apologize for the huge rant but i really needed it to blow of steam to have it off my chest and to let it go...
have a nice evening
i dont even want to know about the mistakes this time - i was writing so much in anger, i think the keybord screamed out in pain sometimes... so just let them be, if you find them you are very welcome to keep them)
( so to start at the beginning and get the rest down and in order )
( things i will judge you badly for )
so yes i am aware it isnt a short list... but really most of it is common sense and manners - stuff one simply doesn't do
there is also a list about things i wont judge you about:
( things you can do and i will just listen and take it in and try to remember )
i guess you are by now knowing where this is going too but i still have to get the rest of my chest anyway
today as i was going my roommate told me she likes ppl and her cat the best when they are pissed off and angry, because then its even more fun to pick on them - and then i said that that is a little sadistic- i didn't mean to judge the sadistic part just was pointing it out- because i know when i am angry and pissed off i am already very vexed and stressed out, and i hate it when someone goes and mocks on my feelings even more and picks even more on me; and then she said: there you go, being all judgemental again I knew you would say something like that again!
and somehow this was steaming in me during my work time
and today work was not a good day- i was somehow dizzy and a little beside myself and it was really hectic and a little lost and i have to get up the ladder and down again, with dizziness this is no fun
and in the evening i went home in the same underground line as two (male) co-workers - i think the male matters here, and because the conversation was very stiff and off, and i think it was my mistake...because i was the female...
but what really was worse was that they asked me what i was studying and i told them - and one of them was saying that that was plain stupid to do and what i was thinking - the other one tried to soften the blow and say it was cool that i stuck to my childhood dream... the situation itself did not really matter to me that much because both of the co-workers are always weird to me, so i just take it
but it got me thinking and thinking
and really the more i thought about it the anger i got, because i have been called judgmental a lot these year, and i am - since i am only human and we humans judge to decide what to do and how to proceed
( is a list about what all in my life has been judged by family, friends co-workers and ppl i just met- not talking about my looks )
so, please come again and tell me how much of a judgmental person i am again?!
all it really did was hurting me and making me angry, for i have to be judged all the time, but when i judge some things me is the bad one? sounds fishy to me
but on a happier note - because i try not to let you my dear fl off with all my bad emotions
( i call dips )
so know that i have ended it on a happy note i 've got to go back to writing, because writing!
and i want to apologize for the huge rant but i really needed it to blow of steam to have it off my chest and to let it go...
have a nice evening
i dont even want to know about the mistakes this time - i was writing so much in anger, i think the keybord screamed out in pain sometimes... so just let them be, if you find them you are very welcome to keep them)
know that i'm healthy and doing relatively good- but i really am getting swamped by drama right left and center right now and so i really have to ask:
did you actually forget I am only one person, my life? because then i really need to remind you- i am only ONE person!
wow I managed a real quick update for once *bewildered*
did you actually forget I am only one person, my life? because then i really need to remind you- i am only ONE person!
wow I managed a real quick update for once *bewildered*
quick update because update will be quick
May. 4th, 2015 09:19 pmso may has come
and i'm very happy about the lj movement: 1 post per day! you folks go! hang in there! i enjoy reading how you've been ^3^
(this is not an sarcastic comment- remember most of the time me is incapable of understanding sarcasm at all)
I didn't join the movement, because really, i am not sure i can take that much pressure- i allways push myself to far, and then nearly break because of the pressure i lay upon myself and everybody is suffering
on a other point- no till now 2015 and me still don't get along, i somehow just do not be able to get the hang of it... maybe its me... maybe its the numbers and maybe its just that i got the cosmic looser card, don't know but life is still very much on the hard site - new health problems are on the horizon and this time its my heart - my pulse is around 80 right now-normal would be around 60 - so there is the pain coming from, but i have to wait till my docs appointment to know more... damn)
about my crush i might be over it- i sure do hope so... but i'm not so sure about it... but then again maybe it was not even there in the first place... so letting it go, that is what i have decided after all ! and never to mention guys confuse me, i can handle them much better as friends <3
today i also got a huge shock, because i tried nearly all the trousers in my closet, and i now only fit in two of them (i have like 20) my stomach has gotten very big and my most favorite summer coat which i wore last october dosnt fit me anymore either- i had tears in my eyes because of that
so must loose weight, must go outside, must do sports must do less eating
today i tried to figure out how to get at least 10 min of workout in my day, and to get the things on my recurring to-list in motion again! because i've been neglecting many things on it
( lists, lists, and more lists )
on a other note - how are you folks doing with gmail?
some of you may know (yeah dont tease me! i read your mails!) that ever since google got big and company like and started to buy things I started a war with it-I am sure it feels the deep of my wrath but it is pointed out to me by many ppl (yeah staring at you here, even if you do not see me) that it is rather handy... as i have an android phone and a very old one (from 12) at that, i have of course also an gmail account- but i never used it outside of playstore... but i might have to bow to general pressure- even if i do not want to!
but i refuse tumblr, fb, and everything else besides twitter and lj... so maybe i should throw ppl a bone here and make it easier for them to connect with me- but that would mean for me running two browsers (because firefox has google blocked with noscript permanent and I am sure not changing that- tor is my sneak a peak at google browser right now and i would use that then too) at the same time- not that my pc cant handle that, but somehow it would be a hassle...
but is gmail really that handy? do you use it often? what about privacy? about advertisement? spam? are there problems?
I am really not sure about the whole gmail thing... i dont want to help a monopole become even a bigger one to be honest
so yes life here in dreamland could be better... but it could be worse- losing my job would come to mind- so i'm good - and the quick update was not that quick after all... but i may be forgiven for that, when did i ever do anything short and fast?
and if i ever learn to do the spell-check before sending it off, i could also get rid of my editing-habit... thank you guys for your pointing mistakes out emails- i crack on reading them- and on your updates!
and i'm very happy about the lj movement: 1 post per day! you folks go! hang in there! i enjoy reading how you've been ^3^
(this is not an sarcastic comment- remember most of the time me is incapable of understanding sarcasm at all)
I didn't join the movement, because really, i am not sure i can take that much pressure- i allways push myself to far, and then nearly break because of the pressure i lay upon myself and everybody is suffering
on a other point- no till now 2015 and me still don't get along, i somehow just do not be able to get the hang of it... maybe its me... maybe its the numbers and maybe its just that i got the cosmic looser card, don't know but life is still very much on the hard site - new health problems are on the horizon and this time its my heart - my pulse is around 80 right now-normal would be around 60 - so there is the pain coming from, but i have to wait till my docs appointment to know more... damn)
about my crush i might be over it- i sure do hope so... but i'm not so sure about it... but then again maybe it was not even there in the first place... so letting it go, that is what i have decided after all ! and never to mention guys confuse me, i can handle them much better as friends <3
today i also got a huge shock, because i tried nearly all the trousers in my closet, and i now only fit in two of them (i have like 20) my stomach has gotten very big and my most favorite summer coat which i wore last october dosnt fit me anymore either- i had tears in my eyes because of that
so must loose weight, must go outside, must do sports must do less eating
today i tried to figure out how to get at least 10 min of workout in my day, and to get the things on my recurring to-list in motion again! because i've been neglecting many things on it
( lists, lists, and more lists )
on a other note - how are you folks doing with gmail?
some of you may know (yeah dont tease me! i read your mails!) that ever since google got big and company like and started to buy things I started a war with it-I am sure it feels the deep of my wrath but it is pointed out to me by many ppl (yeah staring at you here, even if you do not see me) that it is rather handy... as i have an android phone and a very old one (from 12) at that, i have of course also an gmail account- but i never used it outside of playstore... but i might have to bow to general pressure- even if i do not want to!
but i refuse tumblr, fb, and everything else besides twitter and lj... so maybe i should throw ppl a bone here and make it easier for them to connect with me- but that would mean for me running two browsers (because firefox has google blocked with noscript permanent and I am sure not changing that- tor is my sneak a peak at google browser right now and i would use that then too) at the same time- not that my pc cant handle that, but somehow it would be a hassle...
but is gmail really that handy? do you use it often? what about privacy? about advertisement? spam? are there problems?
I am really not sure about the whole gmail thing... i dont want to help a monopole become even a bigger one to be honest
so yes life here in dreamland could be better... but it could be worse- losing my job would come to mind- so i'm good - and the quick update was not that quick after all... but i may be forgiven for that, when did i ever do anything short and fast?
and if i ever learn to do the spell-check before sending it off, i could also get rid of my editing-habit... thank you guys for your pointing mistakes out emails- i crack on reading them- and on your updates!
apples, apples and... melon-lolly?
Feb. 4th, 2015 04:26 pmmy baking, my baking, my me-is-an-awesome-roommate-gift!
( loads of pics about my baking, and the story why i did it )
( on a personal note )
so with this post i am starting officially in my new year 2015- i am a little bit excited what it has in store for me- i hope many good things and i hope you enjoyed the 1. of february just like me, and i really enjoyed it a lot! (❛◡❛✿)
( loads of pics about my baking, and the story why i did it )
( on a personal note )
so with this post i am starting officially in my new year 2015- i am a little bit excited what it has in store for me- i hope many good things and i hope you enjoyed the 1. of february just like me, and i really enjoyed it a lot! (❛◡❛✿)
the i have to apologize entry
Jan. 30th, 2015 02:55 pmso I made a huge post yesterday ranting about stuff and life... this morning i found myself with mail from friends telling me about all- ALL- my spelling mistakes (i hope i stay beneath 100 but i am not so sure about it, and to afraid to really go and check it out, i mean its such a huge and looong list (V__v") )
I want to apologize for that!
i was a lazy lazy girl, with a huge headache and thinking about all the bad stuff got me annoyed too (and that the tv-show was on, was not helping either)
( and here is a very long list about all the things i must apologize for )
today is a better day- because january is ending (finally!) and i start to feel a little bit more of myself *YAY*!!!
have a nice time
and the what I did for owl-update is still on my to do list! did not forget it yet!
I want to apologize for that!
i was a lazy lazy girl, with a huge headache and thinking about all the bad stuff got me annoyed too (and that the tv-show was on, was not helping either)
( and here is a very long list about all the things i must apologize for )
today is a better day- because january is ending (finally!) and i start to feel a little bit more of myself *YAY*!!!
have a nice time
and the what I did for owl-update is still on my to do list! did not forget it yet!
and to me as to most of the people I know january fucked us up for good. so me and my friends have this movement you are very happy to join: its the january does not count for 2015! january was to weather the after storm of 2014!
it was really a shity month, that was one huge trapdoor i feel in after another, it was really an horrible start for a year so i am going to start my personal 2015 with the 1. of february
but before the new year comes, let me have a good rant about the old year
( ranting, ranting, ranting )
( but not only bad stuff happened- and in december i got lovely gifts and i will show you the awesome pictures of them )
it was really a shity month, that was one huge trapdoor i feel in after another, it was really an horrible start for a year so i am going to start my personal 2015 with the 1. of february
but before the new year comes, let me have a good rant about the old year
( ranting, ranting, ranting )
( but not only bad stuff happened- and in december i got lovely gifts and i will show you the awesome pictures of them )
snow day!!!
Dec. 28th, 2014 12:42 pmso, i was a good girl all over everything, and i really, really wished for snow, and because of me being good (at least that is how i see it) today it finally came!
I was already playing in it, and getting soaked by it, and let me tell you, it not only looks fluffy, it is! its so soft!
so me is in a happy mood, and because i want the snow to stay, will continue being a good girl (i know i know correlation is not causation but well - better save than sorry)
and here i have some very bad and very quick taken pictures with you to share!
this is the way to our entrance, however the motorcycles seem not to be to happy
and this is into the wilderness- with my parents cars and the house of our neighborers - very very bad pictures, sorry)
so yay for snow day, and now onward with progress!!!
I was already playing in it, and getting soaked by it, and let me tell you, it not only looks fluffy, it is! its so soft!
so me is in a happy mood, and because i want the snow to stay, will continue being a good girl (i know i know correlation is not causation but well - better save than sorry)
and here i have some very bad and very quick taken pictures with you to share!
this is the way to our entrance, however the motorcycles seem not to be to happy
and this is into the wilderness- with my parents cars and the house of our neighborers - very very bad pictures, sorry)
so yay for snow day, and now onward with progress!!!
dear insomnia,
Nov. 23rd, 2014 08:42 amI'm must tell you how grateful I am for your visit this last 4 nights. It was such a pleasure to finally meet you, and get to know you. But I find myself not quite as comfortable with you, as without you, so if it pleases you, please never come back again! I think I learned my lessons quite well, and I find myself so much better without you. I will not be angry at one night- if you let me sleep it of the day after, but if you ever plan to visit me this long again, I will take measures in my hand. sincerely, me.
so yes, I had a visit from insomnia. never happened to me before, and I hope it will not happen again. firstly because I must have been a mess to be around- if the emails I got are anything to go by. 2nd because even if I was up many nights, and try to work most of that work was for nothing. I can barely read what I have written and not really recall what I read - glad that the typing was most of the time ok, but there are some words that make no sense at all- so I have to redo some (most/all) of the work I did the last four days. so not fun! I also must write immense amounts of "I'm sorry"- mails to all the folks I worried and pissed off at the same time and for all the mistakes I made. that will also for sure take a while.
But this morning, after I was put out yesterday with meds I must say I feel so much better!
what I learned for what you need sleep:
so the plan for today is to nap everytime I can and feel slightly tired, because my brain so earned the sleep, write the mails I need to write and redo the work of the last four days, maybe I find the solutions the the strange words I created, but I think it will be easier to just redo all and start at the beginning since all my handwriting is illegible- in the purest sense of the word, because I can't even decipher the letters alone, and well yes redo it will be!
as a student I spent quite some nights without sleep and still went on, but that was only ever one odd night before a very hard exam or deadline never more, and thank whoever you believe in for that, because now that I know what it feels like to be literally unable to sleep I wish nobody else to make the same experience - it feels unpleasant, hurtful, and frightening to say at least! I'm so done with no sleep, really, done, never again if I have a say in it.
go sleep! and I hope I will never forget this episode and never forget how much I really and truly love and admire my bed!
so yes, I had a visit from insomnia. never happened to me before, and I hope it will not happen again. firstly because I must have been a mess to be around- if the emails I got are anything to go by. 2nd because even if I was up many nights, and try to work most of that work was for nothing. I can barely read what I have written and not really recall what I read - glad that the typing was most of the time ok, but there are some words that make no sense at all- so I have to redo some (most/all) of the work I did the last four days. so not fun! I also must write immense amounts of "I'm sorry"- mails to all the folks I worried and pissed off at the same time and for all the mistakes I made. that will also for sure take a while.
But this morning, after I was put out yesterday with meds I must say I feel so much better!
what I learned for what you need sleep:
- an even heart rate - I did not notice till this morning, but my heart was really hurting, especially yesterday, now that the pain is gone, I notice how much it hurt
- thinking clearly- because the last days there was a fog clouding my mind! and the bad thing again is that I was not aware of it. for me as an controlfreak that is quite frightening, but its over now and me is back
- pain in general- most of my muscles hurt, again now that I am more comfortable I feel only the lack of the pain, even if some of them are not painfree now, they are going to get there I am sure
- memories- I'm finding myself with quite a bit of time, I am not so sure how I spend it- don't know what to think of that to tell the truth
so the plan for today is to nap everytime I can and feel slightly tired, because my brain so earned the sleep, write the mails I need to write and redo the work of the last four days, maybe I find the solutions the the strange words I created, but I think it will be easier to just redo all and start at the beginning since all my handwriting is illegible- in the purest sense of the word, because I can't even decipher the letters alone, and well yes redo it will be!
as a student I spent quite some nights without sleep and still went on, but that was only ever one odd night before a very hard exam or deadline never more, and thank whoever you believe in for that, because now that I know what it feels like to be literally unable to sleep I wish nobody else to make the same experience - it feels unpleasant, hurtful, and frightening to say at least! I'm so done with no sleep, really, done, never again if I have a say in it.
go sleep! and I hope I will never forget this episode and never forget how much I really and truly love and admire my bed!
me and my awesome luck- continue
Aug. 12th, 2014 02:38 pmwell, so me did not want to wait till me friend has time, and so I did the new setup alone- well I am a software engineering student, so how hard could it be?- turns out it was not that hard at all, #
but I am still buying a new pc, my honey is more than 5 years old now, and I have to be easy on him, and he cant handle all the programming stuff I need him to handle, I still adore him through
but the good news is, my sound is back and honey is running smoothly again, the bad news are... well I tried to synchronize firefox, but somehow he lost all the tabs, that I had open in groups and did not bookmark (yeah shame on me for that one) the problem is I am talking about more than 300 tabs here... I do not know how much information and stuff I really lost, but I am sure its a lot, really a huge amout, but I set myself to not go and search for it not, because that would be just a pain in the ass, I hope I will stumble on what I am missing again, and if not, maybe it was not that important- at least that what I will try to persuade myself to believe XDD
but at least sound is back, and I can do some serious listening to the music stuff while studing
but I am still buying a new pc, my honey is more than 5 years old now, and I have to be easy on him, and he cant handle all the programming stuff I need him to handle, I still adore him through
but the good news is, my sound is back and honey is running smoothly again, the bad news are... well I tried to synchronize firefox, but somehow he lost all the tabs, that I had open in groups and did not bookmark (yeah shame on me for that one) the problem is I am talking about more than 300 tabs here... I do not know how much information and stuff I really lost, but I am sure its a lot, really a huge amout, but I set myself to not go and search for it not, because that would be just a pain in the ass, I hope I will stumble on what I am missing again, and if not, maybe it was not that important- at least that what I will try to persuade myself to believe XDD
but at least sound is back, and I can do some serious listening to the music stuff while studing
me and my awesome luck
Aug. 7th, 2014 10:32 amlife can be really hard when one wishes at least for it - at the moment my laptop got no sound- JUST NO SOUND at all!!! its horror
no music, no youtube, no movies, I do everything on my laptop, and than it has the audacity to loose its sound to some bloody virus- got rid of the virus-got rid of the sound, so me has to put it together again and do a new set up- my dear laptop is still running on XP so yeah it will take sometime-because I suck at windows and a friend has to help me and that means till the end of august, my laptop and I are without sound - happy summertime indeed!!!
no music, no youtube, no movies, I do everything on my laptop, and than it has the audacity to loose its sound to some bloody virus- got rid of the virus-got rid of the sound, so me has to put it together again and do a new set up- my dear laptop is still running on XP so yeah it will take sometime-because I suck at windows and a friend has to help me and that means till the end of august, my laptop and I are without sound - happy summertime indeed!!!
back again with start to finish
Jul. 24th, 2014 12:56 pmso it’s been a great while since I myself posted anything here at all- even through my past me promised so faithfully; well past me let me tell you that life does in fact not go as we planed or wished for, and let me use this opportunity to lay past- miss happenings to rest
as this is my wish we have to start with something very horrible that still manages to bring tears to my eyes, is that during my summer break 3 years ago on the 29th. of September 2011 my very dear and more like a brother than a pet cat died. it was quite a shock for myself, because he was awesome, big for a cat (bigger than most of the small dogs), mighty, powerful (when we moved to the house my parents built, he was the king of the other cats after mere two weeks and no one of the others dared to mess with him!) and he was good at making odd friendships- there is this sheep in the flock of the neighbors (yeah I live door to door with farmers, it’s pretty cool) and he would sleep on it, while it moved or lay down or was just standing, and it did enjoy it, and sometimes (after lots of days of rain) it would come to the fence and wait for him- that’s just how cool he was!
I got him at the age of 9 and he helped me not only through life and school and all the hell my life turned when I got older, he helped my through the problems with myself too, he made all of it bearable; and then he would listen to all my presentations, to take of the edge for me (my small kitty stayed as long as it was interesting, I figure), and later when I moved to the big city to study Japanese and was only home during holidays, he did not mind me practicing Japanese with him, even though it must have sound pretty bad.
he was an amazing fried, he forgave me when I leashed out on him because I took a great while to get control over my temper, he even go along with the little kitty that we brought home after 6 years where he was our sole hero (and he adored her, not at the beginning but then he had to set down some ground rules, but she grew on him, and he and I knew it, and sometimes even today she misses him too), we had great times! played lots of games- he liked all the cat toys I got for him and all the wool- things I would make for him, and he had a very decent music-taste, made him even more awesome...
in some way I was and still am very glad about having been home for his last day, going with him to the vet, saying good by (crying a lot, because he was in so much pain, and I could do nothing about it, and then the vet couldn’t do anything either) and afterwards I had the worst weeks ever, because my little kitty went on extended search for him, and I could only stay at my parents for one week after, because my university starts at the 1st. of October, and that year my classes took up at the 3rd. but I stayed home till the 7th. little kitty and I did not take it well, but after the visit to the vet and the homecoming I could not cry anymore, took me till Easter holidays 2012 till I could cry on my own for him again… I mean I was prepared to lose my Gran as she died because she was in a bad condition and she didn’t want to go on, all she did was wait for my aunt to come and visit her and say good bye, but he was fine, at least that was the impression he gave, but he was not, and so for me it came out of nowhere and it hurt, a lot, it undid many things in me, and I never realized how dependent on him I was, he was the strong one, little kitty the fun one, and I was the weird one, but we made and awesome trio, and he is missed by both of us…
but then, life moved on, in its cruel way as it always does and I finished my B.A. in February 2012 and was very glad about it, because it was a lot of work and I did my best.
in April, when I was learning to cry again I had monetary issues and had to go through a nerve wrecking lawsuit for my alimony money with my biological father to whom I have as little as possible contact, because he is not very nice and I don’t like him and I’m glad I have another father to whom I can look up to, because he sucks!
well, it took till the end of August and in the beginning of September I was informed that it was in my right to do my graduate program. and so I did, and he had to (and still must) pay for it (and just so you know he pays the absolute minimum and I could have at least the double of the sum he pays but I am nice, and I just want to get over with it and never ever see him again and I don’t mind working on the weekend)
so in October 2012 I finally started my graduate classes for real and they were a lot of fun and exactly what I would want from them to be- but I never just get lucky. life likes to remind me that luck is a gift not a right, so I got some very alarming results from my yearly health examinations, which lead to lots and lots of visits to different kinds of doctors, and well my brain is doing a good job but not a very precise job anymore. Some of the hormones are of the charge in a way to high and others in a way to low kind, so yes I have very bad and though depressions, but no not from the mind and the psychological me but because of my biological brain- which sucks even more! Because most of the meds out there I can’t take without even worse side effects (drug related stuff in my youth) and the others don’t help really, so I have to live through my depressions- and let me tell you there are reasons why depressions are a health matter and here in my country you can have paid leave if you are diagnosed with it, it’s hard just to get through the waking up and getting up mornings, don’t even let me start about whole days! but then because I was so ashamed being diagnosed with depressions and brain problems (and some other kind of stuff related to it) in my young age I never called in sick, and even if I would have, it would have been nearly 6 months from early November till mid- May of 2013… so I just gave it my hardest when I was around people and tried to learn how to live with it, when I was alone.
what I learned due to my condition is never again to underestimate the meaning of food, I had a special training and have to keep a close watch at what I consume, because apparently what we eat influences our brains a lot!
in 2013 I moved twice! and it was so good and such happy times- no it was not! no it was not, basically I was at my maximum stress level and it did no good for anything- because I still had all my classes, which I passed btw, and I still worked on the weekends), but I could not helped it. first I moved in February and March in a student home again. after 4 years I was back in a student home, with no flat on my own again. but at least this time I got a room for my own and only shared the bathroom and the kitchen with (here it comes!) 3 guys – two of it very nice the third not so much, but well it was alright till the third got a gir friend and she was a screamer (!) and he lived in the room next to mine! (would not have mattered because even the one living as far away as possible in our 4 room/two baths/one big kitchen kinda-flat could hear her) what was worse was as once they did it on the desk in his room, which was put to the shared wall with my room, and somehow because they did it rough or something, my books fell out of my shelf! and another time before I got my earplugs they were so loud that the guy in the room on the other side of mine had to laugh so hard, because it was like 3 o’ clock in the morning and he had to get up at 5.50 to go to work and he could not sleep because that night they started at around 21.00 and then rested and started again and rested again and I was like in puberty hell and the other roommate was there with me I guess. but thank god for earplugs they helped a big deal, and anyway I moved out of there in august and now I am living in the most amazing flat I could find in that damn city, it is in the suburbs, with lots of greens, no tramway there, just buses, and the underground (only 12 min away by foot) but those I do not hear, and I have a nice balcony! I do love my balcony! and the flat is so big and I share it with a friend, because it was her flat and she took me in, because so she could start with her second-chance- education, because man that is fucking expensive!
in October of 2013 I started my last year at the university, with a whole shit of classes because my department of study affairs refused to acknowledge some of the hours I took for my other study – I am an graduate Japanese studies, and a 2nd major software engineering, and as a sociological study Japanese studies deals with statistics- I took one year of statistics at the Institute of Technology, talking about 16 fucking ECTS- credits or nearly 400 hours (1 ECTS- credit = 25 hours of study) of study of statistics, more than my professors at the Japanese institute ever took, I know a lot more about statistics than any of them, but they refused! so I had to get my compulsory optional subjects ( in whole I have to do 20 ECTS- credits so I hope you can see why I am so angry) in one year, that’s a lot of pressure, I can tell you, but well no choice there, and I could not choose what to take, I took everything on offer, because well I needed a lot of hours...
but then also was there something very new too- for the first time in ever I left the manga/anime/original fiction realm and stumbled across some real fan- slash. it all started with this deviantart and lead to this and this awesome and very hot one and then because of it to fan fiction. so those who know me know how I obsess about things (watching all the Sailor Moon seasons all in one go nearly yearly, watching 46 episodes of a good anime in one go, watching J- Doramas in one go, reading 1000 pages of a book in 3 to 4 days because its amazing, and because of it I reread it only one week after and I could go on) so those people know what I did (and still do today) I read till daybreak, tried to get all the information I could around the cannon (still could not figure out Loona Lovegood and some guy named Rolf) cruised the wikis and everything and I still enjoy it a lot, there are many nice folks in the fandom, and you do not believe the awesome and amazing authors and artists – breathtaking and heartbreaking!
well, even though this all, I still managed to pass ALL my classes the last two terms- last of my graduate course ended on the 1st. of July 2014 and all that is left for me becoming a Master of Arts is to write my Master- thesis and pass the last oral exam about it now. it’s a good feeling, and some of the pressure has faded away, and I am very glad about it
so now I am on break at home again, with my little kitty and only going back to my flat in the city on weekends for the same old bread selling job I have since 2009 but will not be doing after 31.12.2014! because I plan to become a full-time- employ or at least a part-timer in my future dream company (and my chances are not bad at all)
I still have lots of books to read and figure out how to start the writing process of my big final thesis but well I had some free-time and holiday now so it will be fine with some of the energy I got back from doing nothing, and maybe I can finally set out doing what past me wanted to do all those years ago and get my journal here so organized that you can take something useful from it away, to make it so I will be focusing on the stuff I know which will be
• Sociology – especially Japanese sociology
• Gender studies
• Theories about Identity and Sexuality
• Programming tricks and knacks (maybe)
• Reviewing anime/movies/books/music
• And with a HUGE maybe including some recommendations in the Harry Potter fandom, I am not very sure about that because![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
capitu is doing herea very amazing and great job and most of the stories I read in the beginning where found through her site! that’s just how amazing she recommends! and if you are interested I just can tell you to start there too
so this is so far so good for now! it was very hard to go through some of the things again and I just realized how emotional I still was about some of the things that happened in the past years… glad most of it is over now…
have a nice time and hopefully you can expect something from me again very soon!
as this is my wish we have to start with something very horrible that still manages to bring tears to my eyes, is that during my summer break 3 years ago on the 29th. of September 2011 my very dear and more like a brother than a pet cat died. it was quite a shock for myself, because he was awesome, big for a cat (bigger than most of the small dogs), mighty, powerful (when we moved to the house my parents built, he was the king of the other cats after mere two weeks and no one of the others dared to mess with him!) and he was good at making odd friendships- there is this sheep in the flock of the neighbors (yeah I live door to door with farmers, it’s pretty cool) and he would sleep on it, while it moved or lay down or was just standing, and it did enjoy it, and sometimes (after lots of days of rain) it would come to the fence and wait for him- that’s just how cool he was!
I got him at the age of 9 and he helped me not only through life and school and all the hell my life turned when I got older, he helped my through the problems with myself too, he made all of it bearable; and then he would listen to all my presentations, to take of the edge for me (my small kitty stayed as long as it was interesting, I figure), and later when I moved to the big city to study Japanese and was only home during holidays, he did not mind me practicing Japanese with him, even though it must have sound pretty bad.
he was an amazing fried, he forgave me when I leashed out on him because I took a great while to get control over my temper, he even go along with the little kitty that we brought home after 6 years where he was our sole hero (and he adored her, not at the beginning but then he had to set down some ground rules, but she grew on him, and he and I knew it, and sometimes even today she misses him too), we had great times! played lots of games- he liked all the cat toys I got for him and all the wool- things I would make for him, and he had a very decent music-taste, made him even more awesome...
in some way I was and still am very glad about having been home for his last day, going with him to the vet, saying good by (crying a lot, because he was in so much pain, and I could do nothing about it, and then the vet couldn’t do anything either) and afterwards I had the worst weeks ever, because my little kitty went on extended search for him, and I could only stay at my parents for one week after, because my university starts at the 1st. of October, and that year my classes took up at the 3rd. but I stayed home till the 7th. little kitty and I did not take it well, but after the visit to the vet and the homecoming I could not cry anymore, took me till Easter holidays 2012 till I could cry on my own for him again… I mean I was prepared to lose my Gran as she died because she was in a bad condition and she didn’t want to go on, all she did was wait for my aunt to come and visit her and say good bye, but he was fine, at least that was the impression he gave, but he was not, and so for me it came out of nowhere and it hurt, a lot, it undid many things in me, and I never realized how dependent on him I was, he was the strong one, little kitty the fun one, and I was the weird one, but we made and awesome trio, and he is missed by both of us…
but then, life moved on, in its cruel way as it always does and I finished my B.A. in February 2012 and was very glad about it, because it was a lot of work and I did my best.
in April, when I was learning to cry again I had monetary issues and had to go through a nerve wrecking lawsuit for my alimony money with my biological father to whom I have as little as possible contact, because he is not very nice and I don’t like him and I’m glad I have another father to whom I can look up to, because he sucks!
well, it took till the end of August and in the beginning of September I was informed that it was in my right to do my graduate program. and so I did, and he had to (and still must) pay for it (and just so you know he pays the absolute minimum and I could have at least the double of the sum he pays but I am nice, and I just want to get over with it and never ever see him again and I don’t mind working on the weekend)
so in October 2012 I finally started my graduate classes for real and they were a lot of fun and exactly what I would want from them to be- but I never just get lucky. life likes to remind me that luck is a gift not a right, so I got some very alarming results from my yearly health examinations, which lead to lots and lots of visits to different kinds of doctors, and well my brain is doing a good job but not a very precise job anymore. Some of the hormones are of the charge in a way to high and others in a way to low kind, so yes I have very bad and though depressions, but no not from the mind and the psychological me but because of my biological brain- which sucks even more! Because most of the meds out there I can’t take without even worse side effects (drug related stuff in my youth) and the others don’t help really, so I have to live through my depressions- and let me tell you there are reasons why depressions are a health matter and here in my country you can have paid leave if you are diagnosed with it, it’s hard just to get through the waking up and getting up mornings, don’t even let me start about whole days! but then because I was so ashamed being diagnosed with depressions and brain problems (and some other kind of stuff related to it) in my young age I never called in sick, and even if I would have, it would have been nearly 6 months from early November till mid- May of 2013… so I just gave it my hardest when I was around people and tried to learn how to live with it, when I was alone.
what I learned due to my condition is never again to underestimate the meaning of food, I had a special training and have to keep a close watch at what I consume, because apparently what we eat influences our brains a lot!
in 2013 I moved twice! and it was so good and such happy times- no it was not! no it was not, basically I was at my maximum stress level and it did no good for anything- because I still had all my classes, which I passed btw, and I still worked on the weekends), but I could not helped it. first I moved in February and March in a student home again. after 4 years I was back in a student home, with no flat on my own again. but at least this time I got a room for my own and only shared the bathroom and the kitchen with (here it comes!) 3 guys – two of it very nice the third not so much, but well it was alright till the third got a gir friend and she was a screamer (!) and he lived in the room next to mine! (would not have mattered because even the one living as far away as possible in our 4 room/two baths/one big kitchen kinda-flat could hear her) what was worse was as once they did it on the desk in his room, which was put to the shared wall with my room, and somehow because they did it rough or something, my books fell out of my shelf! and another time before I got my earplugs they were so loud that the guy in the room on the other side of mine had to laugh so hard, because it was like 3 o’ clock in the morning and he had to get up at 5.50 to go to work and he could not sleep because that night they started at around 21.00 and then rested and started again and rested again and I was like in puberty hell and the other roommate was there with me I guess. but thank god for earplugs they helped a big deal, and anyway I moved out of there in august and now I am living in the most amazing flat I could find in that damn city, it is in the suburbs, with lots of greens, no tramway there, just buses, and the underground (only 12 min away by foot) but those I do not hear, and I have a nice balcony! I do love my balcony! and the flat is so big and I share it with a friend, because it was her flat and she took me in, because so she could start with her second-chance- education, because man that is fucking expensive!
in October of 2013 I started my last year at the university, with a whole shit of classes because my department of study affairs refused to acknowledge some of the hours I took for my other study – I am an graduate Japanese studies, and a 2nd major software engineering, and as a sociological study Japanese studies deals with statistics- I took one year of statistics at the Institute of Technology, talking about 16 fucking ECTS- credits or nearly 400 hours (1 ECTS- credit = 25 hours of study) of study of statistics, more than my professors at the Japanese institute ever took, I know a lot more about statistics than any of them, but they refused! so I had to get my compulsory optional subjects ( in whole I have to do 20 ECTS- credits so I hope you can see why I am so angry) in one year, that’s a lot of pressure, I can tell you, but well no choice there, and I could not choose what to take, I took everything on offer, because well I needed a lot of hours...
but then also was there something very new too- for the first time in ever I left the manga/anime/original fiction realm and stumbled across some real fan- slash. it all started with this deviantart and lead to this and this awesome and very hot one and then because of it to fan fiction. so those who know me know how I obsess about things (watching all the Sailor Moon seasons all in one go nearly yearly, watching 46 episodes of a good anime in one go, watching J- Doramas in one go, reading 1000 pages of a book in 3 to 4 days because its amazing, and because of it I reread it only one week after and I could go on) so those people know what I did (and still do today) I read till daybreak, tried to get all the information I could around the cannon (still could not figure out Loona Lovegood and some guy named Rolf) cruised the wikis and everything and I still enjoy it a lot, there are many nice folks in the fandom, and you do not believe the awesome and amazing authors and artists – breathtaking and heartbreaking!
well, even though this all, I still managed to pass ALL my classes the last two terms- last of my graduate course ended on the 1st. of July 2014 and all that is left for me becoming a Master of Arts is to write my Master- thesis and pass the last oral exam about it now. it’s a good feeling, and some of the pressure has faded away, and I am very glad about it
so now I am on break at home again, with my little kitty and only going back to my flat in the city on weekends for the same old bread selling job I have since 2009 but will not be doing after 31.12.2014! because I plan to become a full-time- employ or at least a part-timer in my future dream company (and my chances are not bad at all)
I still have lots of books to read and figure out how to start the writing process of my big final thesis but well I had some free-time and holiday now so it will be fine with some of the energy I got back from doing nothing, and maybe I can finally set out doing what past me wanted to do all those years ago and get my journal here so organized that you can take something useful from it away, to make it so I will be focusing on the stuff I know which will be
• Sociology – especially Japanese sociology
• Gender studies
• Theories about Identity and Sexuality
• Programming tricks and knacks (maybe)
• Reviewing anime/movies/books/music
• And with a HUGE maybe including some recommendations in the Harry Potter fandom, I am not very sure about that because
capitu is doing herea very amazing and great job and most of the stories I read in the beginning where found through her site! that’s just how amazing she recommends! and if you are interested I just can tell you to start there tooso this is so far so good for now! it was very hard to go through some of the things again and I just realized how emotional I still was about some of the things that happened in the past years… glad most of it is over now…
have a nice time and hopefully you can expect something from me again very soon!
REPORT part III (its picture time)
Feb. 24th, 2012 07:15 pmin part II you have read what I have done so far, I just missed one thing: my ironing marathon. due to one flatmate moving back home to the parents (be gone, and be gone for good) she even took the ironing board back home, which she never used and I used a lot- and she said she would leave it behind for me. in the end she did not! so at the 30th of june I went with a friend of mine shopping for a ironing board (and we ate outside which was lots of fun, as always)
and well my flatmate moved away at the beginning of may so I did no ironing for nearly two months in the end I spend three hours of my sundaynight (of the same week) with ironing
not that much of a story, but wait till you see the pics XD
the enemy- my enemy
the war ground
(here a close up of the design because I like it a lot)
my weapon for the whole night
halfway through
as you can see
and I really thought I was going to let it be, because I could not stand it anymore literally my back hurt a lot
but then my victory
I owned you not ironed clothes I so owned you 0(｀・ω・´)=〇
(thats my fav chair, I do a lot of things in it, its so comforty ^--^)
let me tell you it was an epic battle
and I was so glad when it was over, I think I never slept better than in that night v(=∩_∩=)
and here as a special bonus a picture of how it looks in my room when I write a final thesis
its the floor before my bed, it stays that way till I am finished... which, you know by now, took me a while "
so thats enough pics for today σ(ﾟｰ^*)
enjoy the evening and cu soon
（♡´ω｀♡)
and sorry for me being slow, you know real life is hard on those who are bussy XD
and well my flatmate moved away at the beginning of may so I did no ironing for nearly two months in the end I spend three hours of my sundaynight (of the same week) with ironing
not that much of a story, but wait till you see the pics XD
the enemy- my enemy
the war ground
(here a close up of the design because I like it a lot)
my weapon for the whole night
halfway through
as you can see
and I really thought I was going to let it be, because I could not stand it anymore literally my back hurt a lot
but then my victory
I owned you not ironed clothes I so owned you 0(｀・ω・´)=〇
(thats my fav chair, I do a lot of things in it, its so comforty ^--^)
let me tell you it was an epic battle
and I was so glad when it was over, I think I never slept better than in that night v(=∩_∩=)
and here as a special bonus a picture of how it looks in my room when I write a final thesis
its the floor before my bed, it stays that way till I am finished... which, you know by now, took me a while "
so thats enough pics for today σ(ﾟｰ^*)
enjoy the evening and cu soon
（♡´ω｀♡)
and sorry for me being slow, you know real life is hard on those who are bussy XD
Report part II
Nov. 16th, 2011 11:30 pmit took me a while- you will see in the end why (and again I'm making promises, but I have the honest intention to keep them!)
so we were in the middle of the beginning of july the last time,and so to say july was NOT HOT!
well the weather sure was, but I had to work- lots of work (the whole month 178h) well thats not to bad you may say, and I will say, you are right.
what really sucked, was that I STILL had to write my final thesis, till the 29th. of july and that due to me working in a bakery, which mean early opening hours, I had to get up, three weeks in july at 2 am in the morning. THAT SUCKED. believe me I was dead when I got up. last year I had the same job, but than the night bus schedule was different, and I had a chance to sleep till 2.30 am (work stats at 4) but this year the changed it, and did not tell me!!!! if I had known I would have done something else!
but that was not the only thing that was horrible about early shifts- due to the early bus ( it left at my station at 2.45 and after I changed it once I reached my workplace around 3.30- with the bus later I would have reached my workplace 4.45 which is way to late!!!) I was long before all the others at the workplace, and I was the one without the key, and one of my bosses did come around 3.30 too, so I was lucky there, but the other one did not! so I had to wait, for half an hour in the morning outside the shop- and yes it was july but it was only hot during the day in the morning it was still chilly, and I thought I was freezing up - but I survived every time, and got to work- lucky me, or am I not XDDD.
and after I spend 8 hours at work, and two hours to get there and go back I tried to finish my paper.
to be honest I did not like, and still do not like how it turned out to be. its way to chaotic and I could not really do what I wanted to do, also I have missed some important parts, and wrote to much about not related stuff, so by the time I hand it in, I thought "I will take everything , but please do not let me fail".
well in the end I got a B.
I could not believe it- asked my friends if they are seeing the same thing as me, because the professor is known to let people fail, if well if he thinks that you failed, but I got an be, and he told me some good books for further research on the topic (and on my original topic too) so yes, me was very happy, and very very glad (and I still am)
after this horrible july in which I did just work and write, I thought myself I have deserved a holiday, and so I spend the rest of my summer break during the week at my parents just returning to my own flat for work, and than going back to my cats - but more, and some pics (maybe) later on- because after that stressed month review one needs a break, or am I wrong XD???
so we were in the middle of the beginning of july the last time,and so to say july was NOT HOT!
well the weather sure was, but I had to work- lots of work (the whole month 178h) well thats not to bad you may say, and I will say, you are right.
what really sucked, was that I STILL had to write my final thesis, till the 29th. of july and that due to me working in a bakery, which mean early opening hours, I had to get up, three weeks in july at 2 am in the morning. THAT SUCKED. believe me I was dead when I got up. last year I had the same job, but than the night bus schedule was different, and I had a chance to sleep till 2.30 am (work stats at 4) but this year the changed it, and did not tell me!!!! if I had known I would have done something else!
but that was not the only thing that was horrible about early shifts- due to the early bus ( it left at my station at 2.45 and after I changed it once I reached my workplace around 3.30- with the bus later I would have reached my workplace 4.45 which is way to late!!!) I was long before all the others at the workplace, and I was the one without the key, and one of my bosses did come around 3.30 too, so I was lucky there, but the other one did not! so I had to wait, for half an hour in the morning outside the shop- and yes it was july but it was only hot during the day in the morning it was still chilly, and I thought I was freezing up - but I survived every time, and got to work- lucky me, or am I not XDDD.
and after I spend 8 hours at work, and two hours to get there and go back I tried to finish my paper.
to be honest I did not like, and still do not like how it turned out to be. its way to chaotic and I could not really do what I wanted to do, also I have missed some important parts, and wrote to much about not related stuff, so by the time I hand it in, I thought "I will take everything , but please do not let me fail".
well in the end I got a B.
I could not believe it- asked my friends if they are seeing the same thing as me, because the professor is known to let people fail, if well if he thinks that you failed, but I got an be, and he told me some good books for further research on the topic (and on my original topic too) so yes, me was very happy, and very very glad (and I still am)
after this horrible july in which I did just work and write, I thought myself I have deserved a holiday, and so I spend the rest of my summer break during the week at my parents just returning to my own flat for work, and than going back to my cats - but more, and some pics (maybe) later on- because after that stressed month review one needs a break, or am I wrong XD???
Report part I
Aug. 9th, 2011 11:59 amwhy I am so late will be noted in the last part XD"""
well, so to start at the beginning of it all, and how my last 3 months were I would say I start at the beginning:
and so it all started in may, because in this sweet month of may, I for one thing realized that the topic I would like to do for my graduation report is nonsense, and I could not take it, this means two months of research and reading and writing wasted and on top of it, I had to find a new topic, which was not so easy because firstly I needed to be interested and secondly I still wished to use at least some of my research materials that I had read so far....
but than my problems changed since my language course grew more intense and complicated, and my energy and motivation level kept on dropping and going down till it was at the buttom and well neither motivation nor energy did show up again
I do not know if this was for better or worse, because I did not care anymore what marks I would get, I just did want to get over with it and so I did: I got a C on my Japanese language praxis course *yeah* - I was overjoyed - still failed the theoretical part, but for that I knew it since I had a hard time at the midterm exsam because I had to visit the dentist before and he gave me laughing gas, so I wrote that exam in a literally high state of mind- I found it awesome my neighbor did not
so will do theoretical japanese with all the kanji stuff next term no problem in that
so june was nearly done whe the most amazing part happened:
in austria there is every two years a event called airpower and I was not so sure if I could go this year, would have been the first I ever missed, BUT I was there !!!
airpower is a jet show where they do awesome things on high speed in a jet its just awesome
I was there with a very dear friend of mine and well it was awesome but my camera did strike because the battery was gone- that was so not hot, most of the time I forget my camera at home, but this time I took it with me and still I did not manage to took some photos because my battery was low- give me a break here, I was really really sad and down for 5 minutes than I had to enjoy the show again XD
in order to go to the airpower I had to go home to my parents place, but just for three days, because of work, and so, I had very little language, but still before I could go back to my own flat it needed some packing... its just that my cat thought otherwise:
in the end I could do the pacing and returned safely home on saturday the 2.th of july and went to work
..... to be continued
well, so to start at the beginning of it all, and how my last 3 months were I would say I start at the beginning:
and so it all started in may, because in this sweet month of may, I for one thing realized that the topic I would like to do for my graduation report is nonsense, and I could not take it, this means two months of research and reading and writing wasted and on top of it, I had to find a new topic, which was not so easy because firstly I needed to be interested and secondly I still wished to use at least some of my research materials that I had read so far....
but than my problems changed since my language course grew more intense and complicated, and my energy and motivation level kept on dropping and going down till it was at the buttom and well neither motivation nor energy did show up again
I do not know if this was for better or worse, because I did not care anymore what marks I would get, I just did want to get over with it and so I did: I got a C on my Japanese language praxis course *yeah* - I was overjoyed - still failed the theoretical part, but for that I knew it since I had a hard time at the midterm exsam because I had to visit the dentist before and he gave me laughing gas, so I wrote that exam in a literally high state of mind- I found it awesome my neighbor did not
so will do theoretical japanese with all the kanji stuff next term no problem in that
so june was nearly done whe the most amazing part happened:
in austria there is every two years a event called airpower and I was not so sure if I could go this year, would have been the first I ever missed, BUT I was there !!!
airpower is a jet show where they do awesome things on high speed in a jet its just awesome
I was there with a very dear friend of mine and well it was awesome but my camera did strike because the battery was gone- that was so not hot, most of the time I forget my camera at home, but this time I took it with me and still I did not manage to took some photos because my battery was low- give me a break here, I was really really sad and down for 5 minutes than I had to enjoy the show again XD
in order to go to the airpower I had to go home to my parents place, but just for three days, because of work, and so, I had very little language, but still before I could go back to my own flat it needed some packing... its just that my cat thought otherwise:
in the end I could do the pacing and returned safely home on saturday the 2.th of july and went to work
..... to be continued
what I did since may- a report in xx parts
Aug. 1st, 2011 10:29 pmthat is what will follow here the next 2,3,4 days
because I have lots to tell, and lots to share, and some epic pictures XDDDD
so stay tuned for he telling of my horror month that still was a little funny
cu
because I have lots to tell, and lots to share, and some epic pictures XDDDD
so stay tuned for he telling of my horror month that still was a little funny
cu
