so this was january- life rant straight ahead!

[smirkingcat]

and to me as to most of the people I know january fucked us up for good. so me and my friends have this movement you are very happy to join: its the january does not count for 2015! january was to weather the after storm of 2014!
it was really a shity month, that was one huge trapdoor i feel in after another, it was really an horrible start for a year so i am going to start my personal 2015 with the 1. of february
but before the new year comes, let me have a good rant about the old year


so all the bad stuff:

first the job that i had, and should have started at the 1. of january was canceled due to as they put it: "Bad economy"- which is bad, really, really bad, so i am sending out applications and going to jobs interviews all over again, damn it Σ(ﾟДﾟ) i need to find one before february is over! but so far i will be hopeful! i am not completely stupid and i like to think, so looking forward to the new job that is out that and that i will find!

seconded my flatmates' cat needed an op. not only was it ridiculously expensive, but also the cat is very, very pissed off right now, and she can barely walk which does really nothing to improve her mood, and well, it is not really easy living with her right now, but still one can't fault her, because it has to hurt and it was a op on her hip... and she is a poor thing! so this sucks on more ways than one and makes january suck so much!!!

and because everything needs a third: my depressions are all over the place, and i really have a tough time dealing with people (yeah, makes my interviews so much fun, as i plaster on my smile, try to hide my angst, and look more confident than i feel- fake it to make it or something, but really its hard, and when i come home i am just drained, really, really drained, i hope it would go away sooner, but it stayed with me now since the middle of december and well it did not and this sucks and makes me angry at the same time (￣◇￣) little hopeless there, but only time will tell and there is nothing i can do other than sit it out

so first i got some very lovely cards for christmas:

1. the first awesome card i got, was sent to me by the very, very nice lyonessheart
   
   i got it right before going home for christmas and it gave me a little of this warm feeling i was missing the whole time of advent before- thank you so much for that!

















2. the next absolutly fantastic card was sent to me from the awesome and really talented and also very, very nice chibitoaster
   
   (all sorts of things went wrong with my scanner- please excuse the low quality because the real thing that is hanging on my wall is really awesome amazing!!!
   and as i got it i did a happy dance in the driveway of the housing estate because on the back of the card was this lovely pic, that was just a taste for the amazing stuff that was waiting on the inside (and yes people were staring and no i really did not care, because yay !
   
   also as you can see- she sent it to me in a orange envelope!!! (how freaking awesome is that! I just love orange!)



3. and first my flatmate got me this awesome lovely thing:
   
   this comes with a little story- you see we have this huge keep calm and- poster on our toilet wall, and one day, it was pretty late, we were talking and i said: this is all pretty nice and easy but the only really helpful advice is to oxidate, because that is what you can't really help and that is easy to do, that you do not really have to do anything for- and she thought that is funny, and she put the hippo here because i love hippos and it is orange because orange rules!

so that were my awesome lovely gifts i got with some kind of knowledge what it would be
but this year i also did sign up for hd_owlpost
and look what i was all gifted with:

• i got a very awesome podfic from mab: Fathers of the Grooms the story was written by the very cool dracogotgame and i enjoyed reading it too ( but i just adore it to be read to me ^3^)
  it is so awesome and i heard it already many times, go and enjoy it too!


• also i got Holiday Spirit written by the awesome enchanted_jae i has loads of awesome narcissa in it and it is very lovely to read!


• and then i got a lovely pic drawn for me which can be found here little things and was made by the very talented nearlyconscious

it really made me enjoy my advent through all the dark mood that was sticking with me, those gifts are just lovely!!!
<3
and yes i made gifts myself, but this entry is quite long enough here- will share them tomorrow or the day after! (please don't count this as a cliffhanger, i am just all ranted out, and shared out, and well done for the day!)

wish you all a lovely day! or night! or morning... time zones are bitches really!

Comments

[sophie-french.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm so sorry, sweetie, that you've had such a hard month. :((( And I agree with the 'let's pretend January didn't really happen.'

You know where to find me if you need me, ok? :)

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

thank you so much for offering *hugs*

and yes, let us forget this january (i really have no one i know, who was happy about it)

[mab.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear about how life is sucking right now. I hope it knocks it off soon. I'm do glad you enjoyed the podfic I recorded for you. *sprinkles you with feel good sparkle*

Take care, hon

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

it is your great awesome work! and of course i liked it
and yeah jan was not the best month- but this is a new year, and i have my hopes up now!
and thank you for the lovely feelings <3 - that is so nice from you *fangirl giggle* thank you so much for your great read! still not over it ⊂(^(工)^)⊃