honest time

[smirkingcat]

after i now posted nearly daily for two months, it feels strange not to post, and clutter your feed...
so here i am with some randomness that i was thinking about yesterday and today

• i can't write fanfic of the pairing i just read - this mostly is true for h/d because i lose myself so much in the story i'm reading that when i get back to my story i lost sight of the points i wanted to make - and no, plotting does not help in that regard, because even staring at my notes did not bring me back the story i intended to write with this draft, i have to wait for it to come back to me, i know what now is in my mind is wrong *sigh*
  
  
• today i have to sit down and write because gywo-challenge and i have not written a word of fanfiction/thesis yet
  - and for those of you who are interested and know: yes i do story writing rpgs, but i consider them 'away time' or 'free time', and so the time and words that go into them do not count (truthfully this might be for the better, as otherwise my rpgs alone would get my OUT of writing



• i need to edit huge-ass podfic, but i'm so sick of my voice - i believe it's giving me a headache, mybe my voice is possessed by the damn?



• i have nearly beaten my cold into submission! that is something right? can i get a gold star for that? *this cat wants a gold star so bad*



• i also really want to change my lj-page layout... but i honestly have not the time for it, and i dont know into what i would like to change it- does that even compute?

now i feel better- like my mind is decluttered now that the most stupid observations are gone XD
have a great day !

Comments

[capitu]

mybe my voice is possessed by the damn?

*lol* HUGS!!!

I think podficcing might be just like writing, maybe sometimes you overload and need a step back before you're ready for more??

<333

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

i'm sure you are right ;)
*hugs back*

but i feel like a super-hero if i imagine the damn speaking behind my voice whispering as a sublime message: "and your head will hurt and you shall hate your voice and nothing good will ever come out of it uhhhhh" *imagines it with a skeleton hand stroking my brain*
that would be so cool!

<3 maybe later today or tomorrow no need to rush i have time

[themightyflynn]

*showers you with gold stars*

I have the same issue when I read other people's fics. I find going back and reading over something of mine helps, because it's in the style I usually write in. :)

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

awwwww
*bathes in gold stars*
what a nice feeling*

i tried the rereading but sadly it did trigger nothing in my brain- maybe my brain is stuck, well i shall just write another pairing it isn't like i dont have anything to choose from :D

[tjs-whatnot.livejournal.com]

Gold Star for you!

Good luck on GYWO!

♥

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

awwwwwww!
thank you for the gold star
*pins it too my chest*

and thanks- i shall give my best not to disappoint!

<3

No star, but have this LOL

[enchanted-jae.livejournal.com]

Re: No star, but have this LOL

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

LOOOOL

i have a ton of people to kill then !

*goes to sharpen the claws*

[felixfvlicis]

I know what you mean about reading other H/D fics and then trying to reprise your own. I read one last night -- Five Weddings and a Potions Accident -- from hd_erised, and now I'm like, yeah, my fics are terrible.

Are you planning to write for hp_kinkfest?

♥

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

never compare your writing to others- always compare it with your own!!!
but truly sometimes we can't help ourselves right? and then i too totally feel you, and am believing i have no talent, no words, and no stories, and it's hard to get over that, right?
still it will pass, and we go and write again, because writing is fun!

and yes i might be part of kink-fest this year, there is a prompt i would really want to take! sooo much!
lets see if i dare XD
will you be part of it too?

[felixfvlicis]

I will, indeed. I saw a few prompts that I'm just dying to claim.

♥

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

yeah, that is the trouble - too many good prompts
and i have no real experience writing smut in English - in my mind it works nicely, but then when i try to put the words down they just seem wrong- i hate that

[felixfvlicis]

I understand where you're coming from, not so much with the language, but the content. I've never written anything darker than PG-13.

If you need a beta, I'd be happy to help you out.

♥

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

awww that is such a sweet offer!
i may take you up on it, because the last time i attempted a sex scenes one of the folks had 3 hands XD"

[hikorichan.livejournal.com]

Gold star!

"...when i get back to my story i lost sight of the points i wanted to make - and no, plotting does not help in that regard, because even staring at my notes did not bring me back the story i intended to write with this draft, i have to wait for it to come back to me..."

Ah, this has been happening to me so often the last year! Usually I get distracted by things other than reading, but the result is the same. Like I know how I want the story to progress (plot), but it's just not coming out in the way I want it to. I remember how beautiful it sounded in my head when I started, but I'm unable to produce them. It's so frustrating! I hope you can find a way to get your story to come back to you!

[smirkingcat.livejournal.com]

awwww - thanks for the gold star <3 *happy face*

distractions are the worst right?
i hate when i remember i HAD a story but i simply can't remember what sort of story... sometimes i hate my mind being unable to keep it together!
thank you!
i hope you will find all your lost stories too!