1st week without the queen

i am not sure i can say i am over it, mostly i am drowning myself in studies for distractions. also i went home and switched the furniture around in my room and cleaned my room top to bottom, basically all the signs of my queen living with me for 20 years are gone...
my parents are not happy with me, because i did that, and because i dont want to talk to them about my cat right now, but that is what it is. i talk about everything else, but not about my queen right now... i dont want to cry, i think i will never stop again so distraction it is.
for the moment, i just want to go back to try and act normal and go on with life and stuff... maybe not the most healthy approach but the only one that i can take...
i just know that life without my queen around is not as fun and cosy as it was with her by my side