it hit me out of left field

[smirkingcat]

i know that many on my fl and some of my rlf have huge troubles now and i want to be there for you... but for this week i have to excuse myself... i have another wave of depression i have to get over with... and this one is really bad... i went so numb yesterday i went to bed at about 4pm and it took me more than 3h to get up today... there is not a single useful thought in my mind, and i am really happy i dont have to go anywhere today, because i cant cope right now

i have to finish drizzle somehow and have to find a kind beta... but that has to wait, till i at least have some thoughts back in my head and some inspirations in my fingers

i'm sorry that i whine at such a bad time for all of you and know that my fingers are crossed, and that i try to remember and think about you and wish you all the luck you need and deserve!